I think I am going to avoid tumblr for a while. Or at least try. I am just so sick of everything. Need to find a way to reinvigorate and I don’t believe I will find it on this site.
…alternately rancorous and glum. Well, the new chapter is just around the corner, which means my period is just around the corner, so it is probably the first throes of PMS. Right now I feel like if it wouldn’t take so much work, I’d rewrite the last 3 parts of Dream Runners and give it the ending I originally planned. Not that I dislike the ending I gave it, just that one of the contributing factors in changing it was because I thought it would please more people. But it didn’t, and now I feel like an idiot and I wish I hadn’t changed it. I feel like the only end that would’ve made it popular would’ve been an exclusively ReiBert ending and it was NEVER going to go that way. Or maybe my writing really is just shit and I am making up excuses for why my shitty fanfics aren’t more popular.
See what I mean? Rancorous and glum.
An AU in which everything is the same except that everyone thinks I am rad as hell.
me: i want something very short and small and cutesy but most importantly body safe and discreet
sex toy companies: try the DEVASTATOR SEVENTY THREE INCHES OF PURE JELLY RUBBER HYPER REALISTIC VEINS WE SHOWED IT TO A NUN ONCE AND SHE BURST INTO FLAMES THERE’S ONLY ONE SETTING: DEVASTATION THE VIBRATIONS CAUSED AN EARTHQUAKE MILLIONS ARE DEAD
It gives me a sense of sadness and loss to realize that my enthusiasm for the new chapter is diminishing with each month as no answers come. I mean, what are we set up for now? I expect another action chapter with Levi—god am I sick of him—and company breaking into the compound to rescue Eren and Historia. Nothing wrong with action, but eventually you need some reveals so we are reminded what all this is for. I feel like lately it has been mostly Levi-centric action and headshots of people talking for long stretches. The problem with the later is that most of what has been said could be done more succinctly and in a more interesting way, and none if it is anything all that informative. Seriously, who didn’t already assume that eating another shifter catalyzed titans to regain human form?
I just want something exciting and spectacular to happen. And seriously, the more chapters that go by with no significant world/mythology development, the fewer fucks I can give about anything related to Levi. It honestly baffles me that so many fans are still so attached and invested in him. I just can’t see what is supposed to be so interesting about him.
Still, I haven’t lost hope for this series. I will still follow and still cross my fingers that answers are coming.And I do keep in mind that this really is Isayama’s first (to my knowledge) series so there are bound to be bumps in the road. Pacing can be tough and it must be particularly hard to have your first series become such a phenomenon. Perhaps I am expecting too much from an author who really is a rookie, even though he managed to create such a fascinating world.
Write something waffly or poignant?
If only I could be so terse… I do not know why one-shots and drabbles evade me so. If the feels are still there tomorrow—and they almost certainly will be—I will doodle him all over my post-its at work.